[Filter: Private]

So Allison's been promoted ahead of me.

Of course I'm happy for her. She deserves it, she's always been a good knight and does what she's told.

...Lady Amaeyra's personal guard. She'll be beside Lady Amaeyra at all times...

...Could've been me.

If I'd just been a good girl and done what I was told...no, it's not even the promotion I care about, it's that Lord Hasten hates my guts.

I lied to him, I broke my vows and tested his patience. All for the sake of Lady Elthea.

And for what? She's dead!

If something good had come from it...if she'd grown stronger, or gotten better, it would've all been worth it.

But no, she took the coward's way out.

And I still can't even begin to resent her even after she fucking ruined so much.

Maybe I should-no.

Leaving and crying is the coward's way out. I'm not a coward. I've never been a coward.

I'll work as hard as I can to gain back their trust and respect. Even if I never get a promotion, at least I'll know I'm a good knight if I work hard.

No more lies, no more cowering, no more bullshit.

I may not be perfect, but damn it, I'm willing to give it my best.

[Filter: Allison]

...Congratulations. I'm glad to see I wasn't holding you back after all.

[Filter: Lord Hasten]

I apologize a thousand times for everything I've ever done wrong during my service to House Lireth.

It wasn't worth it. I only wanted to help her...but no one could have.

If only I'd seen this coming...

All I can offer is to never question my loyalties again...to never question you again. You were right, I was wrong.

All I ask is for the chance to redeem myself.