wildaxewoman: (Cry)
[Filter: Private]

Ryan...

No matter how stupid and annoying he was, even if I wanted to smack him more than anything sometimes, he was still a friend. During all the business in Colndor, he was one of the people who kept me from completely losing it. Him and Ken and Joey and Jeremy, Brienne, June...they were like my second family. All those games of cards and Cat's Cradle, all the stories and jokes and drinks we shared.

We were never invincible, but I never thought one of us could die. Then again I never thought Corrina would die, and look how that turned out. ...Dragons, after she died I promised to take care of everyone important to me. If it weren't for my stupid arm...maybe I could've gone with them, I could've helped them or...no, probably not. It would've ended up the same no matter what.

...I'll miss you, you big idiot. You and all your annoying habits and stupid comments.
wildaxewoman: (Unsure)
[Filter: Dame Evelyn]

What's going on? I apologize for my impatience, but it's been a long time and I'd feel better if you or one of the Valkuria could tell me something...! Were you able to heal all of his injuries? Is he conscious? Please...anything!
wildaxewoman: (Pray)
[Filter: Allison]

...we're really a part of this. It's been true for so long now but it still all feels like some horrible dream.

I just want this to be over quickly. I'll do everything I can do serve Dentoria in its time of need, but I still wish this wasn't happening.
wildaxewoman: (Pray)
[Filter: Private]

She is in a better place now. It hurts, every day it hurts to know there's so much of life she'll never have, but when I think of how bad it's been here and that she can't be hurt or affected by it...

This would've torn you apart, Corrina. You were always too sweet and gentle for such things. ...she would have sympathized with the refugees. Like you, Allison, she probably would've reminded me that it's bad for them too.

...I still wish you were here, though, Corrina. Maybe it's selfishness on my part, but I really do.
wildaxewoman: (Pray)
[Filter: Mom and Robin]

I know you don't write in here anymore, but just in case. If either of you are still here, please answer. Just...anything to let me know you're okay.

I'm trying to stay positive, trying to hope things will get better now that we've got Lord Kiefer in Mansoure and Lord Derek in Emeron checking on things, but it's still such a mess all over and I just...if something happened to any of you I don't know what I'd do.

Please be safe. Please.
wildaxewoman: (::glare::)
[Filter: Private]

Fucking refugees, haven't you already done enough? And on the fucking Festival, no less, how dare they. I just want all these asshole Koriners gone already, they had no right.


[Filter: Allison]

I still can't believe this. This is beyond unforgivable, isn't it? And I thought the riots were going too far, this is just...Dragons, I'm just so angry.
wildaxewoman: (Scared)
shit

[the writing is rushed and messy]

They're

Dragons it's a mess out there, they're breaking into stores and screaming and setting things on fire and trying to attack everyone-!

Allison please tell me you're okay please tell me it's not as crazy where you are.
wildaxewoman: (Shocked)
[Filter: Private]

Dragons.


[Filter: Allison]

Allison, you won't believe what June just told me. I...I can still hardly believe it myself. Some man forced himself on a Korin refugee woman the other night, she was on call when it happened...
wildaxewoman: (bright eyes)
[Filter: Allison]

That was a lot of fun...it's been a while since we did our Festival shopping at home. I remember last year, wondering if we'd ever have another Festival of Leaves at home with our families...it almost seems too good to be true, doesn't it?
wildaxewoman: (Default)
[Filter: Private]

At least this time we'll be closer to home. ...I wish I could've been positioned with Allison, but obviously Lord Hasten has his reasons for that. I'll just have to pray for her safety out there. Then again...well, so far we're just patrolling, keeping an eye out for trouble. This Koriner business hasn't gotten too bad yet, right? I hope it stays that way, it's been weird enough as it is.

At least June's been positioned alongside me. She's always been pleasant to work with, takes everything seriously and all.
wildaxewoman: (bright eyes)
So earlier, for some reason I got to thinking about the puppy I used to have. His name was Patches, he was a stray my brother and I took home and kept hidden from Mom and Dad...of course, we had to give him up when they found out, and I wish we hadn't had to. He was so much fun!

Anyway! So what was your first pet, if you've ever kept any? What did you name it? Did you have to hide them from your parents?
wildaxewoman: (Gentle)
[Filter: Private]

It all still feels like a beautiful dream. Home. Mom, Dad, Robin, Aunt Juniper, Uncle Garrison, everyone and everything I thought I might never see again. We're really here. I keep expecting to wake up and still be in a tent, or at an inn. Still keep expecting to hear Brienne snoring, or Joey and Ken arguing about something stupid.

I'll never take any of this for granted again. Ever.
wildaxewoman: (Gentle)
[Filter: Allison]

Can you believe it? All this time we've been wondering if we'll ever see home again, and now we're almost there...I won't lie, I'm still worried about leaving Lady Elthea to her own devices out there, but I'm not one to question Lord Hasten. And I'm definitely not gonna complain about finally getting back home.
wildaxewoman: (::glare::)
[Filter: Allison]

Can you believe Jeremy? Even now he still won't show any remorse for what he did! All he cares about is whether his precious Lady Elthea is okay...I can't be the only one who wants to slap him. I won't, of course, that's not going to help find her, but still.

...I wonder how far she could've gotten by now. She has to stop and rest sometime, after all...if only we knew where to look, we could catch her while she's resting and bring her back. Probably not a very realistic plan, but still.
wildaxewoman: (::glare::)
[Filter: Private]

She would pick now to run away, wouldn't she. We were almost home, and now who knows how long it'll take to find the little wretch? If I could go back in time, I'd never have...no, she still would've found a way to cause this much trouble even if Allison and I hadn't felt any compassion for her. You think you know a person...

I wish Robin was still writing in here. I could go for some news from home, or a silly joke...anything but this.
wildaxewoman: (eyes of hatred)
[Filter: Private]

That idiot, I could just


he doesn't even have the decency to feel remorse, he doesn't even realize she used him-!


[Filter: Allison]

We should have acted sooner. We knew this was coming, and we still

He should've never been left alone with her.
wildaxewoman: (eyes of hatred)
[Filter: Private]

You both think you're being so discreet, but even Brienne can see what's going on by now. Jeremy looking at her with such unabashed pity, Lady Elthea probably wondering how she can use that to her advantage...she's still too quiet, but I know what must be going through her head.

If only there was some way to get through to Jeremy that he's being manipulated. But of course he'll never listen to me, I'm just biased because I was dumb enough to be tricked by her more than once. Yes, and that's how I know she's trying to trick you, you idiot!

Ryan says I should be glad I'm not the one in hot water for once, but that's not even the point. Lady Elthea is dangerous, if things go awry with her again who knows what could happen?
wildaxewoman: (Unsure)
[Filter: Private]

Of all the times for him to develop a sense of compassion, this had to be it. The way he looks at her with those pitying eyes, it's obvious what he's thinking. Dragons, is he really that thick? She's dangerous, he knows what she's done and why we had to bind her up so tightly, and he still finds it cruel?

[Filter: Allison]

Have you noticed the way Jeremy is looking at the prisoner lately? I think we may have to keep a sharper eye on him as well as on her.
wildaxewoman: (Default)
[Filter: Allison]

Hey...I'm feeling okay now. Well, better, anyway. Sorry I worried you like that.

How about you? How've you been holding up?
wildaxewoman: (Sad)
[Filter: Allison]

...hey. I just thought...well, today is her birthday, and it's still-you know, I just figured maybe you'd want to talk? ...I need to talk.

It's just not fair. I know thinking that doesn't change anything, but it just isn't.
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